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Saturday, March 29, 2008

Farewell Brunei...

Good morning! XD
I start my 5-hour journey to Kota Kinabalu about 45 minutes from now, then at 2pm, we're taking off for Philippines.

I can't express how I feel really. I feel nostalgic, sad and excited and it's a bugger that my tear ducts just can't seem to dry up!

Anyways, I just wanna shout out to all my Brunei friends!

Thanks for everything yeah? From my Sunshine School peers to my PDS batchmates, my YFC family and all my other friends! You guys are the greatest! I love you all to bits! God bless yeah! See you all soon! Keep in touch okay!
I'm going to freaking miss you all!

<333

Karla Cristina.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Wednesday

Thursday, Friday and then...Saturday. The day. Gadd just thinking of it makes me go all emo and I feel like I want to cry!

And today, I had to freaking postpone hanging out with my old classmates because my mother wanted me to start freaking packing!

Seriously. There are three more days to go. More than ample time to pack. Packing is easy. I wanted to hang out with my friends, friends who I've not seen in a long time and won't be seeing in a long time when I leave but no, she demands that I stay home and then accuses me of being uninterested in going back to Philippines and giving my social life more importance than my education and I'm like, okay, I have to breathe now and compress this ball of frustration that was getting bigger and bigger by the second before I snap and yell things I might regret later on. The fact that I'm PMS-ing doesn't help either. I tried to calmly reason with her that I wanted to spend some time with my friends before I leave and would you believe it, she pauses, stares at me and then, there was no stopping her.

She was yelling and glaring at me so much I thought her eyes would pop out of their sockets and I felt beyond exasperated that I was a hair's breadth away from crying that I eventually started sorting out my clothes and stuff while listening to Josh Groban's heavenly, heavenly voice. I couldn't suppress my feelings any more and finally let my tears of frustration fall when he started singing You Are Loved. XD The irony's bloody killing me.

Seriously. She just doesn't understand. They don't understand. I'm bloody leaving Brunei for Pete's sake. It might not be a big deal to them, to you even, but to me, it's a freaking milestone! I've lived here for the whole of my life, for 16 years. I'm practically Bruneian. My school was here, my friends, my home and basically my life. Of course I need some time to prepare myself and to savour and remember everything and her incessant nagging and telling me off to no end is just very...frustrating.

Well, we're good now anyway. I don't stay angry for long, at least not at her because giving her the silent treatment and ignoring her will lead yet again to another round of nagging and telling off at it's fastest speed that it might as well be recorded in the Guinness Book of World Records. Seriously.

I brood a lot. I complain a lot. But I have to admit, I'm going to really miss my mother...and my daddy...and Igz...and Ryan. Being the unica hija (only girl) in the family, I'm pretty sure they'll miss me too coz I'll miss them for sure. Oh God, I'm getting all teary-eyed now. Fudge.

Anyway, what it all comes down to at the end of the day, despite all the arguments and nitches we may have, they're still my family and not even turning the world upside down would change that and I freaking love them to bits.

Karla Cristina.

Monday, March 24, 2008

<33

HUGE THANKS
to all who came by here to spend the day with us!
I had great fun karaoke-ing, walking, CS-ing, playing basketball, eating and just hanging out with you guys even if our plans didn't turn out the way we wanted em to.

LOTS OF LOVE
to Bianca, Manuel, Karmina, Janno, Sarah, Ria and Alister for coming!

Hope you guys had fun too! :)

They spent the day at IMD doing things that we usually do which is basically play CS, eat and play basketball. We sang karaoke a bit too. Haha. Bianca and Sarah have the coolest voice ever! We wanted to watch a movie but the guys had to play at Darul Hana for an "urgent game" and they came back kinda late and Bianca, Manny and Sarah they all had to go.

So it was just with the guys that we watched Vantage Point at home. Danver brought chocolate cake which we finished through the opening credits of the movie. They didn't even bother to get plates! HAHA. Share share saja. XD They were so noisy and Ryan kept making me laugh that we had to repeat the first part of the movie three times because we kept missing it and we couldn't get what the movie was about. Also, it turns out that Danver had already watched it and he was explaining the whole movie to us with spoilers! Jeeeez. LOL. He told us everything! Haha.

After the movie, we all planned to go to the mall today but then these stupid stomach and abdominal cramps come attacking me and I can't even stand without a thousand jolts of pain rushing through my stomach! It sucks because we were supposed to watch Horton and play CS and hang out and then go to the YFC meeting at JR's place but it turns out I couldn't go... :( So sad! Oh well, now I know never to play sports and walk around for a long time when I have my period. Gaaaddd. Sakit kali ah.

Karla Cristina.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

29th of March

Wow. It's really confirmed now. I'm leaving Brunei on the 29th and I'm not coming back in a long, long time.

I was booking the tickets just now and I suddenly got thinking about how actually real this is. I mean, yeah, I know I'm leaving and all, it's just that it never really got to me at the beginning but now that the freaking travel itinerary is in front of my eyes, it just feels "Woah! I'm really leaving." It's like, solid impact.

It's hilarious and at the same time really nostalgic. I've never been away from Brunei for more than a month and the prospect of actually living in Philippines is both really exciting and scary.

Exciting because I'm granted independence and it's really a whole new thing for me and scary because...well, because it's Philippines. Enough said, I believe?

There are lots of things I'll miss about Brunei.

1. School. WTF? I know right. But really, school is practically the only active social circle here (or maybe I'm just really lame, lol) so you can't blame me. :)

2. Church and YFC. Yeah, there's YFC in Phils but its not the same right? I mean, I practically grew up in YFC here and everyone feels like family now so I'm definitely going to miss that. I'm one of the oldest members here and in Phils, I'm going to be the newbie. And church...? Because I like the mass here better. I don't know why. It's just so solemn and there's this togetherness that you feel when you're at mass here. Or maybe it's just me again. XD

3. Clean Air and Peace. Yep, definitely going to miss that. Philippines is one wild country, especially in politics. I think the problem is that everyone somehow turns out having skeletons in their closets, be it million peso debts or scandals and everyone just makes a huge issue out of it. And oh, not to forget, there's greed too. No forgetting that one, for sure.

4. Nasi lemak, Beef Rendang, Satay and Ros Bandung. Gluttony, yes, I know but really, you can't get any better than juicy satay and red hot sambal on chicken, people. XD

5. My Darul Hana and IMD friends. I can't even start telling you guys how much I'll miss you. You guys are my childhood. Great, great people is what you are. From Ren, Char, RG, Chay, Angie, V-anne and all those who're now in Phils to the ones that are left here with me, Arvay, Jovz, Danver, Ryan, April, Richelle and all you guys, love you all! Really.

6. My adored friends! I'll miss my batchmates in school, Hanah banana, Farina, my YFC friends and all you guys. Love you all. :D

7. Last but definitely not least, the Pasions. Yeah. Love you guys. Igz, good luck with being the 'eldest' now. XD

I'm being overly dramatic now. XD Nostalgia is bloody getting to me.

Karla Cristina.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Mum's 41st

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUMMY! :D
Wish you lots more years to come and I hope you'd live so long that you'd get to see lots of your great grandchildren!
Love you, mum!

Karla Cristina.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Right, I've calmed down now. Forgave but did not forget. I have a problem with the whole "forget" thing.

I figured he doesn't really mean it but oh well, never mind! HAHA. XD

Karla Cristina.

Wow. My brother wants me to just get the hell out of Brunei and go back to Philippines and he bloody wants me to do it right now. I'm like, wtf? You have no idea just how very sad it is to hear it. I'm like, what the hell? Seriously.

I really need to let off some steam because I am way beyond pissed off right now. I bet you're thinking that I should write this somewhere more private like, in my bloody journal or something. Sorry for you, I don't have one.

I ask him to stop what he was doing on the laptop to do one small thing and he gets angry about it. He goes dumping all the stuff carelessly and muttering under his breath. I let him off.

Then, I notice this thing and I remind him to work on that thing because it's one of his household duties anyway and guess what? He fudging shouts at me. I ask him why he's yelling and he yells at me that I should get on with this thing instead because he's already doing the other thing. Again, I let him off.

I just got home from work, okay? I spent the whole afternoon teaching super hyper 7 to 10 year old kids. When I get home, I cook something up for them because mom's out. I'm tired. I sound like a freaking mom but seriously, I ask him to do these two small things which in fact he knows are his responsibilities and he blows up at me like that. How hateful is that?

Knowing him, I knew he wasn't going to do it because he's so eager to get back on the laptop so I remind him again of the other thing and he yells a thousand decibels louder than he did the second time and would you know it, he bloody asks me to just go back to Philippines. I snapped. Would you blame me for snapping? I'm human. I can only take so much. I yelled back that he doesn't have to wait long because I'm leaving real soon and he asks why I can't just go right now?

I felt like I had just been slapped in the face with a fudging stainless steel frying pan. Seriously. I've been spending all this time getting bloody emotional about being far from my family for an uber long time for the first time ever in my life and it's no big deal to him.

I don't know how I feel right now. Knowing especially that it's lent and I shouldn't have let these things happen and I should have been more patient. But seriously. Jeeeeez.

Karla Cristina.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

100th Post

Oooh yay! This is officially my 100th Post. Congratulate me! HAHA.

Anyway, I just watched this ridiculous and really embarassing video on youtube. This is really mean but seriously, how do you expect a girl like her to grab the Miss World crown and make us Pinoys proud? Yes, I'm talking about Miss Philippines representative to Miss World.

I'm mean, I know. Diss me all you want but I have been trying to see beyond her lack of wit and just be proud of her but really, if you'd have watched the video, I'm pretty sure you'd be recoiling into a dark corner halfway through it. It's not even funny.

I don't know what the judges see in her but seeing how she handled the question and answer portion I thought she would have nose bleeded to death! I can't blame her really. It's the judges who are to blame. Shame on them really, shoving a girl into the butt of everyone's jokes and ridicule!

She still has seven months to go till the Ms World pageant so I hope she uses that time to actually learn something from her Mass Communication course!

Paolo Bediones: Janina, how are you?
Janina San Miguel: I'm fine.
Paolo Bediones: Alright, so you won two of the major awards - Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit, do you feel any pressure right now?
Janina San Miguel: No, I don't feel any pressure right now.

The question is, what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?
Well, my pamily's role for me is so important b'coz there was the wa- they're, they was the one who's... very... Hahahaha... Oh I'm so sorry, Ahhmm... My pamily... My family... Oh my god... I'm...
(Paolo Bediones: Pwede ka magtagalog,ok lang) Ok, I'm so sorry... I... I told you that I'm so confident... Eto, Ahhmm, Wait... Hahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys because this was really my first pageant ever b'coz I'm only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the taf 10. Hmmm, so... but I said dot my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.

Karla Cristina.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

haha

I absolutely have no idea why this is so funny but it is. XD

I googled myself (sad, iknowright but i was bored and didn't have anything to do) and my blog, THIS blog came second on the result page! HAHAHA.

I seriously don't know why it's funny. It just is.

I'm being lame again. Damn it.

Karla Cristina.

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Just this simple person with a big heart and a quirky disposition. Generally open-minded. Conventionally optimistic. Day-dreaming is a hobby. So is reading and writing. I haven't quite found my passion in life yet but I do know that I've got a purpose and a truck load of dreams and ambitions. (:

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